Blodeuwedd's Blog

This is my first crop of carrots, which I have been growing in pots in the garden as it is due to be dug over, so I can't plant them in the ground. I have learned that I need to plant them in deeper pots, or otherwise they will corkscrew at the bottom, like these in the pics. But they did taste nice, although they were paler that shop-bought ones.
Another result of the not planting deeply enough is that the tops seem to push out of the earth and go a bit green.
Still, not bad for a first try.

There's an inherent sadness in my life and I wish I could do something about it. How can some people have mindless fun and not think about what or who is missing in their lives?
I wish I could capture that without any effort.
Things are no less complex, depressing or anything else for me than for millions of others the world over.
I'm not asking for any special treatment, although sometimes I think I secretly, subconsciously expect it. I've suffered, so give me a break. That's the upshot of it.
Why can't things be simple? Why can't people be nice to each other?
Why can't I stop grieving for the things I've lost and let pass me by and appreciate what I have?
I wish I knew, but right now, I've never felt more alone and cast adrift than I do now.